Have you ever considered that maybe something else is possible in such situations?
I recently was invited into an opportunity in which I gifted a perfect stranger some money, knowing that this investment has the opportunity to grow tremendously. Not really much different from stocks and bonds and other financial opportunities as there is the risk that the money won't grow and be returned to you. However this venture was very different because I wasn't investing in hoping that the stocks or interest rates would increase, but rather I was investing in making someone else's dream come true. In all truth, there was nothing to hope in. It all lay in the gift that I offered to someone else and the wealth of receiving that I have had since then. And no, I haven't received the monetary award that is possible in this scenario yet. That is yet to happen in addition to everything else I have received.
What I did receive was a freedom from all of my past "wastings of money". I was able to release and let go of all the places where I had shamed, judged and felt guilty for throwing money away. This was a true gift to me. I have never felt freer with regards to money.
That is exactly where I would go each time I judged myself for buying into a program and then not getting what I thought I would get out of it. I am pretty sure I am not the only one who has done this. It was like I had to justify the expenditure. Being in that space is not light and expansive to me. As a matter of fact, it reminds me of a child being punished for the choices she has made because they weren't the choices that someone else would have made. In fact, just believing in this "waste not, want not" thought pattern has kept me from being able to be the source of my own money creation. Until now...
Now I know that any money I have spent on anything has been a contribution to life and living to someone in some way. I just don't always get the feed back on how that has worked out. When I spend money I enter into the allowance of letting the receiver choose how they would like to use the money that I have given or exchanged with them. Just as they are in allowance of me using the items that I have purchased in what ever way I choose. And when we are in allowance and judgment is taken away, then consciousness can exist and I do believe that we begin to make choices that are much bigger contributions to each other as well as to ourselves.
This brings me to what it is I truly desire to be in having money. My greatest desire is to use money to create change on this planet. So now when I am choosing who and how to spend my money, I will be in the space of asking questions. Questions like, "If I enter into this, what will my life look like in the future?" "If I offer my money for this, will this create change that will benefit me and the other party and the world?" And when I am looking for benefits, it isn't always about getting more money in return. It can be about getting more awareness about me and my limitations- as happened with this recent exchange. Questions assist me in making choices that I feel confident in knowing that I have consciously made a difference.
I have also discovered that when the money is given freely without any judgment or expectation, it does come back in the most unusual ways: unexpected refunds, a correction on a loan, bonus money from clients, and the list goes on as there are infinite ways that money comes back to us if we are open to receiving it and don't have any judgments or outcomes attached.
In this recent venture I have been able to help another woman reached for her dream and in the process, I am getting closer to mine. It is how I can be a source of contribution to someone else and know that change is happening here on planet Earth. And I would judge that for what reason? None that I can really think of. And so it is with all of my past expenditures. All judgments are erased and knowing that nothing is ever wasted. It all serves a purpose in some way.